Thoughts...

So I find myself with my phone in hand writing this blog. I've written deleted and re-written this thing so many times already it's ridiculous. People always wanna hear and talk about the glamorous side of wrestling. Or the pitfalls of the wrestling business as far as drugs. But the one thing no one really talks about is the burnout and fatigue factor included with doing this. I started training in October of 2007 in Norwalk, Ca and for the most part trained every week. I'd say out of the past almost three years I've missed about a total combined 30 days of training not including the time it took for us to get the new dojo. So saying that what I'd like to focus on is the gradual wear and tear it takes on u, both your mind and your body. As of this writing I'm working with two fucked up knees a neck that had a nerve pinched my left elbow that kills me whenever I extend it and my left hip that everyday hurts likes bitch. Not to mention the continual back pain that comes with the constant bumping. Along with that comes the days when u ask if it's worth it. Like what's the pay off, where do u wanna take ur career. Do u really want to give up ur free time to drive to a show to make a lil bit of nothing. Wrestling has always been a life long dream of mine that I wouldn't stop at nothing to accomplish. But once I became a pro and started doing this I find that the toll it takes on ur body isn't as bad as the toll it takes on u mentally. Wresting is a love of mine that's always been there. It's never disappointed me. It always made me happy and feel like I have something that's mine. I've gone through a period of me not doing shows because of work that made me ponder and question whether or not all the time put into this is in vain. I kinda lost a lot of my early motivation and admittedly so got very lazy and lax in my training and my approach to wrestling itself. But lately I find myself reinvigorated and a new motivation to succeed and actually move forward with the progression that I feel hasn't been made in the last year or so. But I'm still you g so time is on my side. The dream def is still alive. Til next time.